i guess im feeling better, mentally i dont think anyone understand what i was going through, and i dont expect anyone to. but i just hope "friends" could stop using the word "emo" on me.
if you're a friend, you wouldnt attempt to "brainwash" your friend that he or she is emo. go think about it, what kind of friend does it make you?
well anyway, it's down to me and my music (: ive been catching up a lot, and its the only way i can feel better. reggae dance moves are the coolest !
common test period is coming, i have yet started on anything, so im going MIA soon. till then love (:
Singer: 王力宏 (Wang Lee Hom) Title: 摇滚怎么了 (What happened to rock)
leehom's latest song :D after his chinked-out where he puts chinese elements together with r&b now he's out to work it with rock! it blends so well, and it was really super high at the concert (:
Singer: Usher Title: Love In This Club
had the song since it was released, but after watching the making of the music video, totally fell for it.
Singer: 王力宏 (Wang Lee Hom) Title: 女朋友 (Girlfriend)
one of leehom's old song, but could never get enough of it. totally feel the need to move!
Translation: "i see through you like you're a child, but i try to hide it all all the past that hurts me so much. you betrayed me like i was a fool, and i have to bear all the cruelty at the end, i decided to leave..."
thank you for the music, RIP, i miss you so dearly.
RIP in case you dont know what happen, she's a contestant in the taiwan's big scale singing competition, in fact she was the second runner up for season 3.
i really really think it's quite a pity that she had decided to commit suicide, and it's rumoured to be because of a relationship. i really admire & love her voice so much, and not many taiwanese could sing english songs like she does. just as her career was getting on track, she decided to end it.
im feeling so down about it, cos i could feel how much her friends & family love her, and shes not the only bad news i've heard for the whole of today already. as i was reading the news, i saw one article mentioning ing, and about him crying upon the news. however i think hes too busy right now, so i left him an offline message instead. but ing, do remember im always here if you need someone to talk to.
suern & huiying hey darlings, thanks a lot! the roses & balloons are still surviving strong right now and still as beautiful as ever :D and it's the heart that counts, love ya.
mathiaus the print is super pretty! and let me describe my first expression when i open the box, since you wanna know. im super surprised that i shouted oh my gosh, out loud! it's just really really preeeeeetty (: thanks matt!
jeff hey, thanks for the cute lil things. it'll be on my desk for a really really long time! im not so awesome a friend luh. but thanks for everything :D
guankai, leonardi, guanyu, shunli, bala, nicholas & jerrold the balloon is still surviving, no worries. your efforts are not wasted! and the bears are super duper cute, they shall be named after the 7 of you (: dont worry, i'll not torture them luh. years down the road & they will still be intact, just the way you gave them to me, thanks darlings!
jeff & glenn and the second gift from jeff lau, hahah! thanks twinnie & jeff, finally fulfilling my wish of being a GEEEEEK. i think i look really stupid in it, just the way i am, HEH.
kenny thanks my dear, it's really beautiful (: i have never expected it, and it must have been expensive. remember theres always me when if youre too stressed up & all, and you need someone to talk to (:
oh boy, stagewerkz has got me more bruises & cuts. cos i was rushing around handling many many things. so my legs were still sore, as i have to run up & down the flight of stairs in my heels. way to go, peishan! and yes, SEND ME ALL THE PEEKTURES!
yesterday was BIRTHDAY :DDDD my inbox was flooded by many many text messages when 12mn strikes, THANKS LOVELIES (:
birthday lunch with parents was absolutely greeeeat, and dinner with my dearest beatty guys was superb! credits to guankai & leonardi. do send me all the peektures soon!
and yes, thanks for those that have given me presents! (suern, huiying, jeff, mathiaus, guankai, leonardi, bala, shunli, guanyu, nicholas & jerrold) lovethem all (:
and so the list goes for my birthday wishes: (in random order)
for some reasons, i just wanna hide in a corner to cry.
i can see myself turning transparent, while i stand far away clapping for the rest of the people, and i walk away in silence. who would notice that?
im not noble. just keep doing & suffer in silence, because nobody needs to know what you're going through. this world is practical & self centered. and at the end of the route, you can only hand all your efforts over, and stand aside.
i dont feel so good, and everyone's too busy with their own stress, that everyone is neglecting everyone's feelings. ):
stagewerkz finale on saturday, but somehow im not in the mood. to be honest, it should be the event i am more attached too, since i was part of it last year. but right now, i dont see my presence. im neither here nor there, i dont know what to say.
people thinks im too in post to do saikang, however im not the superior that handles the honour.
had four new postsbefore this one, i was focusing on the publicity of stagewerkz finale. so i saved my posts as drafts, and decided that i should post it all together; since ticketing is over & done with (:
stagewerkz performance today was a great big success :DDDD i thank the lecturers for making their way down to show some concern & support. this goes out to all the supporters, bacommers & performers too! well done people (: giving out of tickets went really well too, if anyone is still interested in getting tickets, do contact me as soon as possible. tickets running FAST!
today, 2 happy moments (: success of stagewerkz performance & one enemy down.
it's been a really really tiring day, and im expecting it to be just the same for the rest of the week.
im having cma test the day after my birthday ): i dont have much time to study, and I DONT WANNA DO IT ON MY BIRTHDAY! tsk.
today, someone manage to change my mindset a little on some stuffs i've decided on. dont know if it would be a good thing, or not. but so far so good, im glad people like this still exist around me (: be a little more sensitive, it doesnt hurt to show you care.
a few happy moments every day, keeps me going a long way. i have 2 happy moments today (: (who would bother to remember the bad ones?) a good guy friend who cares & the secret reveals.
WANG LEE HOM'S MUSIC MAN CONCERT 2008 IS ABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC!!!!!
i cannot get enough of it ! cos leehom's music talent is just so wonderful, seriously. two thumbs up to the stage design, concept & superb effects (:
i loved his songs & talents before the concert, and im loving them so much more after! i really felt the music & lyrics, makes me wonder what was going through his mind when he wrote these great songs.
especially those love songs, not many guys could express love in his way; not cliche, not mushy, but sweet, romantic & really deep.
oh yeah, and did i mention? there were so many middle aged women! not forgetting the grannies, i was so so so amazed! i supposed his talents killed many many.
stefanie sun & kit chan were at the concert too. not as special guests though, leehom needs no special appearance! he was the only performer throughout the show, that's how awesome he is ((((:
and i got myself a lucky seat! leehom decided to walk down the aisle, out of the entire stadium with so many stairways, he came down MINE! hahaha.
(due to copyright issues, im not gonna put up so many photos, just a few on random)
in conclusion, leehom is my superhero - music man!
i felt so much more for leehom's songs after his concert! feel the music (: my favourite song of them all! *coloured words are my favourites :D
雲飄在天空 浪在海流動 clouds in the skies, tides of the seas 這世界太多 無法掌握的夢 in this world, there's so many dreams that beyond reach 你站在風中 你是自由的 you stand against the wind, you have your freedom 生命有太多 不得不分的痛 in life, there's so many times you face the pain of separation
當你將離別握在我手心 when you decided to let go 我聽見愛被悄悄捏碎的聲音 i hear the crushing of our love 你不懂你不要的我的心 the heart of mine that you did not understand and abandoned 會隨你鬆開的手而喊停 stops beating as you let go 我試著微笑 (試著微笑) i try to smile 試著擁抱 在每一秒 try to embrace, every moment 我不想看見閉上的眼睛 i hate to see you avoid 害怕你最後 化成淚溜出手心 afraid that our love ends up with just only tears
你給過的承諾 我怎麼能不放手 the promise you gave, how can i not let go 當妳誠實述說 他的愛多遼闊 hen you speak honestly, how much he loves you 這是我的手 它牽過你往事中度過 and this is my hand, that once brought you through so much 這段漫長的路 不該走到寂寞 this long winding road, should not let us to loneliness
some people asked me, "why not get a boyfriend? i think you'll be much better off."
i cant help but laughed, whenever i hear that. that's not true, not a bit. i guess it's hard for you to understand, but you can try.
i believe people these days are dating for the sake of fun, pleasure & joy. they dont think much, they dont see the future, or shall i say, they thought they know what they want. marriage doesnt cross their minds, and even for some of my friends who are already thinking about it, i can say, none of them has any idea what to expect. there's so many things behind it, and i guess you need life experience to understand.
but anyway, marriage doesnt strike me, not for now at least. well my point is, i have so many things happening in my life, and people around me think it's so simple, that a boyfriend can help share a burden. but no way, we'll be of each other's burden.
friendship problem is not a problem; boy-girl relationship problem is not a problem; studies problem is not a problem; living life IS a problem.
if my reader, you, is in your early 20s or below, it's really fine if you dont get it, that means you're at your right stage of life. if you're in your mid 20s or above, and you still dont get it, do start thinking what have you been wasting your last 20 years of your life in.
another reason relationship cannot get in my way, in my perspective, im too old for boys, too childish for men. leave me my time to grow up. i need to live life.